Being authentic with God.

Today was one of those days, feeling pain to the core I just wanted (and I think I did) to lay out a lists of complaints before God. This is why I'm hurting and quite frankly I dont see why you havent provided for me. There it was laid out before God, how I felt. It wasnt a prayer of "Thy's and Thou's" but one of honesty. God know's exactly how we're feeling, He know's that the life we are promised by the media doesnt work out in the real world. He knows this fallen world is one of pain, anxiety, frustration and many tears. He calls to us to come, cast all our anxiety on Him because He cares for us (1 Peter 5:7). I guess the greatest part of growing through the tough times is getting to that place where we are continually saying "Yes this is how I feel, over to you God, I can't deal with this, it's too big for me, take it all,"

I read somewhere ( I apologise to whoever's insight this is) that "If the tension points in our relationship with God canot be owned, talked about and laid bare before him, then not only will we be unable to receive the love for which we were created, we will be unable to return it...we hunger not merely for encouter with God but authenticity with God." Authenticity is found in the tough times, when we are too weak for politenes, for protecting our ego, when all we can do is cry out for help. And that is the greatest place to be, in that position on our knees before God saying "You are God, and I am not, please, will you take control, take the lead, have my life."

The real question is whether we will allow our pain to drive us away from God or whether we will meet him in that place of authenticity, that place where He will gladly take the lead as He lifts us up and moves us on.